Sa pagkakataong ito, gusto kong pasalamatan ang aking mga kaibigan, mga kaklase, schoolmates, ang aming mga guro at siyempre ang mga taong bumubuo sa aking ever beloved school na Saint Paul University Surigao. Nais ko sanang pasalamatan kayo isa-isa kaso it may take up so much time. So, looking back at the memories, hinding-hindi ko malilimutan yung mga araw na nakatayo tayong lahat sa atrium for ahmm… let’s say few minutes? Dahil lang sa maiingay tayo. I won’t forget also how McJames, Kenneth, Raramz and the others make the whole class laugh kapag lahat kami ay malungkot. Those days na nagkokopyahan ng assignments, nagtutulungan sa projects, and those mornings na pinapagalitan kami ni Sir palin kasi wala raw ni isa sa amin ang nagsusweep. And oh! Who would ever forget our class officers?  Ang super kwelang class mayor and soon to be pilot na si Mr. Sigfred Patriana, ang aming vice mayor na si Ms. Ely Rose Apple Luna. Alam nyo, idol naming yan kasi biruin mo, napapanatili niyang straight ang buhok niya at shiny everyday! Maganda, matalino at ubod ng bait na si Ms. Eunice Balberia, ang aming ever responsible na secretary. Ang aming uber gwapo na treasurer na si Mr. Adrian Sy na medyo kuripot, ang kwela naming P.I.O. na si Ms. Lady Maturan na super responsible, siyempre naman sinong makakalimot kay Mr. Kench Besario, ang ubod ng kulit na auditor na siyang nagpapasaya ng buong klase. Ang mga astig naming Sgt. At Arms, si Madelyn Operario na magaling mag-gitara at si Mr. Kenneth Tuquib na singer ng Pere Chauvet. Kakalimutan ko pa ba ang aming Muse na si Ms. Kristine Albaida na saksakan ng kasexyhan at ang kanyang escort na super gwapung si Mr. Mcjames Concha. Kung wala siguro kayo, our life would be empty, wow ang drama. [Hehe]

Well anyways, maraming salamat sa inyong lahat at natutuwa ako’t ako’y nagging parte ng buhay niyo. Alam kong pagkatapos ng gabing ito, marami nanamang magrereminisce at magnonostalgia, di naman talaga maiiwasan ‘yun di ba? Ilang araw nalang nga ba ang natitira bago tayo gumraduate? Tatlong araw nalang. Tatlong araw nalang at magmamartsa na tayong lahat. Nais ko sana na sa ating paglisan sa ating ever beloved school, ay huwag na huwag nating kalilimutan ang mga turo’t reminders ng ating mga mentors sapagkat pwede itong makatulong sa paglutas ng ating mga problema pagdating ng panahon.

May nakalimutan pa ba ako? Ay oo nga pala, this morning while riding the multicab, I was listening to our section’s theme song with the use of my mp4… Slowly, everything became blurry…My mind was starting to drift to a place I’ve never been to. Kaya naisip ko, ah… baka nakatulog lang ako kaya kinurot ko ang sarili ko… deadma lang, but then I realized na OUCH! ANG SAKIT NUN AH! Masyado kong inabala ang sakit sa pagkurot ko sa aking sarili nang napansin kong mayroon palang isang babae na kanina pa akong tinatawag. Lumigon ako sa left, walan naman, sa right kaya? Wala din, puro naman halaman… ah sa likod kaya? Hala mumu?! Joke lang. [laugh] May nakita akong babaeng super as in super ganda bringing a laptop case, nagtatrabaho at isang lalake ng ubod ng gwapo na may dala-dala naming suitcase nakaakbay naman sa kanya. I think nagtatrabaho ‘tong dalawang ‘to sa isang bigtime na Electronics company. Linapitan nila ako at may inabot na envelope. Ah! Invitation card… hmm… teka, ABALO and RAMILLA nuptials?! I dazed for a moment, ikakasal na sila?! Natulala ako’t hindi ko napansing umalis na pala silang dalawa, grabeh… I never thought na magkakatuluyan sila, ano kayang itsura ng magiging anak nila? Naisipan kong maglakad-lakad at pumasok sa isang coffee shop, starbucks, sosyalan! I sat beside the window and took a sip from my frappucino nang may napansin akong lalakeng kanina pang nagsasmile sa akin, I tried to remember who he was pero he was too far for me to study his face clearly. He was with a girl pero di ko Makita yung face niya kasi nakatalikod siya, I think nagdedate sila so I didn’t bother to look their way baka kasi magkaroon pa ng gulo. Bigla nalang tumayo yung lalake at babae, papunta sila sa table ko habang magkaholding hands…? hmmm… teka parang sina….. nung medyo malapit na sila, doon ko lang narealize, OMG?! Si Poypoy at si Geli?! We talked for a while and I found out na anniversary pala nila kahapon, four years na daw sila. And they were planning to build their own food chain by next month. They offered me a ride to the park so I took it. Nang makarating na kami sa park, I bid them goodbye and walked away… tapos may nadaanan akong isang photoshoot at dahil sa ako’y isang dakilang usisera, lumapit ako at nanood, agad kong nakilala ang mga models na nagrarampa, Si Mesh na naka yellow polkadot bikini, si Janna na nakasports attire at may hawak-hawak na soccer ball, at si Faith Joy na bagong endorser ng Bench suot-suot ang kanyang famous… teka, what’s that called again??? Ah… yes, boxer shorts. They were the top models from the PC magazine na pagmamay-ari namn ni Mr. Byron Alceso, CEO. Umalis ako sa park at dumiretso sa sakayan ng Jeep papuntang Roxas Boulevard. In-on ni Manong ‘yung radyo sa favorite FM Station ng lahat, ang WAY KURAT! Yes, ang Way Kurat, nationwide na simula noong nabili ito ni Mr. Aldrin Ganto. The station was playing one of the popular songs sa panahong ito and I remembered that it was sang by McJames who just went home from America, siya nga pala ang pinakaunang pinoy na nanalo sa American Idol. The Jeepney stopped and dropped be off the sidewalk. Habang naglalakad ako, I saw a very familiar guy, ang gwapo! Makalaglag panty! He noticed me and approached me. I was shivering that time , I was thinking, will I say “hi? What’s your name?” or “hello. Artista ka ba?” Nangingisay na ako, smile pa lang ulam na. Nung magkatapat na kami, I slowly remembered who he was, OMG! He was Adrian! And he was now a surgeon! Paano ko nalaman? Magic! Joke [giggle] he told me… He invited me to take his lunch sa Aristocrat, we went to where his car was parked, WOW! Hanep pare bigat! His car was the latest model of the Galvez Motors, isang international company na pagmamay-ari ni Mr. Ronnie Bert Galvez, CEO.  Pagpasok naming sa restaurant, sinalubong kami ng mga waiter at hinatid sa table namin. Habang kumakain, may isang babae at isang lalake na umupo sa table namin. At first, di ko sila nakilala, but when they introduced themselves… WOW! Hindi ko aakalaing magiging chef si Gelo at isang bonggang-bonggang businesswoman si Jimrossel na siyang bagong nagmamay-ari ng Aristocrat, a five star restaurant.Nagkwentuhan lang kami nun, pero umalis din si Adrian kasi may surgery pa raw siyang aatendan, meron daw kasing gusto magpalaki ng boobs. So I decided to leave na rin. I rode a jeepney and went to one of the prestigious schools now in the Philippines, the Taong University, to inquire for my younger sister. I’ve heard that it was owned by Dr. Fil-ann Marie Taong, Ph. D. After inquiring, nagdecide akong bumili ng bagong damit, so nagpunta ako sa pinakamalpit na megamall na pagmamay-ari ni Mr. Vincent Paul Cuares, ang CUARES MEGAMALL. I went directly to my favorite boutique, the “P” Sweet, which is owned by the Pertacorta twins, Kathy and Karen. All their dresses were beautiful and affordable! Nung nakabili na ako, meron akong libreng calendar, and the model for this month was… Teka… si… Trizza Sequihod! WOW! Ang sexy niya, lalong-lalo na in her white bikini! Naisipan ko ring pumasok sa sinehan, ano ulit ‘yung ginagawa ditto? Ahy, oo, manonood nga pala ako ng movie nila Raiel Vinn at Erika, they’re the hottest love team for 3 executive years na! And ang mga dakilang kontrabida naman ay sina Janine at Kenneth. I’ve heard na aalis daw silang dalawa papuntang Paris to shoot a new sequel for Lovers in Paris, Pinoy version. Ang gagaling nilang lahat umarte and I found out rin na ang director ng movie ay si Direk Lady Maturan and this was produced by Mr. Alexis King Literato who was now to be married to a very popular singer. Paglabas ko ng sinehan, may nakita akong nagcoconcert sa ground floor and again dahil sa isa akong dakilang usisera, nanood ulit ako. I then saw Kristine Albaida and Mike Adobas hosting the concert. At alam niyo ba? May kumakalat na balita na lovers daw sila at lagging nagdedate sa roxas boulevard every Thursday night. I stayed for a while to watch the concert, narinig ko na ring kumanta si Jay Alfred Rejuso na isa nang matinee Idol, I even saw Ralph Manlimos dance, I’ve heard na meron daw siyang dance studio near ABS-CBN. It was already 4:30 in the afternoon, so umalis na ako at pumunta na sa Doctor’s Appointment ko sa Tampo Philippine Hospital, na pagmamay-ari ni Dr. Mary Gwendolyn Tampo, Ph. D. Habang hinihintay kong dumating yung Jeep, Narinig ko sa mga chismosang maiingay na kulang nalang ay sumigaw sa lakas ng boses na nakalabas na raw ng PBB House si Kench Besario. Shocks! Sayang, ang gwapo pa naman nun. Nung nakasakay na ako ng Jeep, nakatingin lang ako sa bintana, then may nakita akong babae sa billboard, hanep ang buhok niya, sobrang straight! Narinig ko nalang sa mga nag-uusap sa tabi ko ang pangalan niya. Wow! Si Ely Rose, Ms. International?! Sosyal! Bumaba na ako ng Jeep at pumunta na sa office ng Doctor ko, si Dr. Troy Jayson Bonono, Ph. D. , a heart specialist. We did the usual check-up and he would frequently tell me not to stress myself. After the check up, naisipan kong magpunta sa isang bar to cool off. Pagpasok ko, the dynamic duo were playing their song, si Francis na nagiguitara at si Emmanuel Eludo na kumakanta, and oh did I mention? Sikat nga pala itong bar na ‘to which is owned by Madelyn Operario. Medyo maraming tao, so I decided to go  out and walk na lang. Habang naglalakad ako, may nakabanggaan ako. She looked at me and smiled. I was to say sorry to her when she suddenly said, “Do you remember me?” I studied her face and I realized, OMG! She’s so sexy na! It was Eunice Balberia wearing her ever sosy clothes and I’ve heard that she’s dating one of the basketball players sa NBA. She then accompanied me to the central park kung saan may isang malaking fountain. We sat there and reminisce. Sinabi rin niya sa akin na nagkita sila ni Ms. Chezza Garcia na isang CEO sa Gasul Company kanina. And I’ve found out na may clothing line na si Eunice sa States and she was to fly there tomorrow with her close friend the pilot, Capt. Sigfred Patriana. Pagkatapos naming mag-usap umuwi na ako sa condo ko and I turned on the tv. Finefeature nila ngayon ang pinakamayamang tao sa buong daigdig na nagmamay-ari ng libu-libong kumpanya around the world, Si Mr. Mark Daryl Vender. Sinabi rin sa tv na meron na ring girlfriend si Daryl at pinaclose pa raw niya ang buong CUARES MALL para lang maipasyal ang girl at makapamili ng walang sagabal. Ang sosy! Ahy oo nga pala! May natanggap akong balita galing sa Surigao, si Mr. Jemson Palin daw ay nagretire na at wala pa ring asawa… joke![laugh] Mr. Palin left his job 5 years after our batch graduated and started to build a call center sa Surigao which is now very popular. Sosyal di ba? Then I snapped into reality. Nasa school na pala ako.

I was just daydreaming? No wonder masakit yung pagkurot ko sa sarili ko? And no wonder nakatingin sa akin lahat ng tao sa multicab. Nakakahiya.. pero nakakaaliw din at the same time. What if, totoo lahat ng yun di ba? Makakayanan kaya ng powers mo na tanggapin ang reality? Makakaya mo kaya to go with the flow, kahit na medyo naguguluhan pa kayo? Sobrang lalim na, gosh! Di niyo na ako naiintindihan di ba? So I’ll end this na kasi alam kong sawa na kayong lahat sa pakikinig sa boses kong tunog palaka at sa mukha kong budbod ng make-up. So people, reminder lang po, huwag kumain ng marami bago matulog, dahil nakakamatay. Toinks! 2 words, Anong Konek? Sige serioso na, Ito ang dapat niyong tandaan, huwag na huwag niyong kakalimutan ang mga alaalang nabuo sa high school sapagkat magiging susi ito sa inyong success sa future. Remember, once a Paulinian, always a Paulinian. Thank you at Maligayang bati sa inyong lahat!

END.

The Last 12 days of my Senior Year

(12 days to go before graduation)

Part 1

This is it! This is really is it! I’ve been waiting for this all my life and finally,

Only 12 days to go before I could finally leave this alma mater of mine.

Days of boring classes, days of unwanted assignments,

Months of accomplishing projects

And of course who could ever forgotten?

The hours and hours of sitting and listening

To someone talking while some are just sleeping.

Those days, those times, were like torture!
Especially for us teenagers who are fond of doing

New things, scavenging for new adventures,

And of course, the desires of simply relaxing and just let time flow.

I’m very excited! There are only 12 days to go before I could graduate.

So little time left to enjoy the moment with friends whom we know that

Would fly away as soon as the graduation day passes away.

Ah! Those moments, those precious moments of life, love, and anger.

The times when we shared our problems, the times when we last cried together,

The times when we laughed, the times when we envied the same person…

And the times when we all sought revenge on one person.

It’s funny thinking about it. After 10 years or so…

Those memories still fresh in our minds,

Heart warming thoughts which helped us get through all our problems…

*Sigh*

High school really is something…

It can mold you into someone who can sing like Haley Williams of paramore,

Play the guitar and sing at the same time like Yael of sponge cola,

A great dancer just like Luningning of Wowowee

Or even Vhong Navarro who starred as Agent X44!

The final examinations just finished 2 days ago,

And we’re finally free of academic things to do.

All we have to do now is just come to school at the same Time,

And at the same hour for our graduation practice.

And Oh! Before I could forget, we’ll be having our grad ball.

Yes! A grad ball! It will be held on March 12 in one of the prestigious hotel

Here in our place, the elegant, GATEWAY HOTEL.

My band mates and I planned on playing on that awe-inspiring night.

So, good luck to us.

This afternoon…

I had a bad head and toot ache.

The pain was so unbearable…

And I ended up skipping practice and stayed in the clinic.

Tomorrow, I might miss practices at the afternoon,

‘Cause I might have my tooth extracted he he.

It’s no joke! The pain is so unbearable,

Well, thanks to PONSTAN SF… the pain is now bearable^__^

Aish! I’m going to miss this part of my life…

Days of unlimited texting will now start to fade...

T__T

But still….

I’m not ready to face COLLEGE.

|_+‘XeLine_merT`+_|

I don't know why,
 I've always been big on happy endings
. You see, to me,
the most romantic,
beautiful love stories ever
were the ones where two people meet,
fall in love,
& then 50 or 60 years later,
one of them dies.
Then a few days after that
 the other one dies
because they just can't bear to live without each other.

But you know what?

It's funny that I still believed in happy endings,
 when in my life,
there's no hopeful sign that it could happen.

STUPID.

-__-

That’s me...
and that won't ever change...
I'll always be a dreamer...
I was born a dreamer,
lived a dreamer,
and I will die a dreamer....


Psh!

T__T

Now, happy endings?
Yeah, they do exist…

in dreams

but in reality...

 there's no sign
of it's existence....

so, tell me...

should I stop believing???


>__<



xeline_mert

After a while,
 you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul.

And you learn that love doesn't mean
 leaning and company doesn't mean security.

You begin to learn that kisses
aren't contracts and presents aren't promises.
And you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes open,
 with the grace of an adult,
not the grief of a child.

You learn to build
all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground
is too uncertain for plans.

After a while,
 you learn that even sunshine
burns if you get too much.
So plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone
to bring you flowers.

You learn that you really can endure,
that you really are strong,
and that you really do have worth.

You learn that with every goodbye,
there's a hello.

So take chances.
Tell the truth.
Date someone totally wrong for you.
Say no.
 Spend all of your cash.
Say yes.
Sleep an entire day.
Read a book.
Tell a story.
Fall in love.
Get to know someone random.
Be random.
Say I love you.
Laugh at a stupid joke.
Cry.
Apologize.
Tell someone how much they mean to you.
Drink until the bottle's empty.
Sing out loud.
Tell an assh*le how you feel.

Let someone know what they're missing.
 
Laugh until your stomach hurts.

Live life.



|:...xeZene_reiNe..:|

Hey, it's been a while since I last posted something on this
blog of mine...
And  I thought there were already cobwebs
in it's corners.

Okay, so here it goes...

I've been busy for my projects lately since it's the last quarter
of the school year here in
my school... and sudden dramas started to burst out just like
a bomb explosion in Iraq.
Yeah, you heard it right.
Right after our recollection -- the smaller version of a retreat,
A lot of things changed.

My classmates might not see it,
but I am sure that I could sense change around.
It's a blissful feeling, knowing
that everyone's goal in life is finding the meaning of life,
which is happiness.

It was fun having the recollection
especially if the whole room is airconditioned.
So relaxing and very comfortable.

We also had an activity,
it was called NOTES OF AFFIRMATION/APPRECIATION.
You were to write something nice to a person in a piece of paper which is to be passed around so that everyone could write their own compliments to the person anonymously.

Some of the compliments that I received were:

+good friend+
+Sweet, cheerful and adorable+
+Approachabe+
+generous+
+kind+
+trustworthy+
+good singer+
+industrious+
+friendly, simple, intelligent+
+responsible+
+helpful+

If those things are unbelievable, then I don't blame you.
It's kinda odd to hear good things about you
most especially if
you don't hear them everyday.

That's all for now,
I have a formation to go to.
CAT awaits me!


ciao!



|:...xeZene_reiNe...:|

Tears flowing endlessly
In the silent whisper of the night
Blackened rose petals crushed by the rain
Cries of tiny cherub louder and louder
The rain drops, drops and drops
Never ending rain, never ending pain

Cold winds make me shiver
The coldness of your heart hurting me still
Misery, misery won't leave
Thorns of the roses you gave
Keep pricking my heart deep

Tears flow in the silent whisper of the night
Cleansing my heart and my soul
I live in my own world, a dreamer's world
A dreamer's lullaby
Playing over and over in my dream
Where no one can hurt me.



|:..xeZene_reiNe..:|

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PROLOGUE

The protagonist…

______________________________________

*band plays*

In a not so popular bar, there she sings and works part time after school…

♫      I'm losing myself
trying to compete

She’s just a typical schoolgirl who dreams to go to college…

♫      With everyone else
Instead of just being me

She’s not the campus’ it-girl…

♫      Don't know where to turn
I've been stuck in this routine
I need to change my ways
Instead of always being weak

She doesn’t have a lot of friends neither does she had a boyfriend…

♫      I don't wanna be afraid
I wanna wake up feeling beautiful...today
And know that I'm okay
Cause everyone's perfect in their usual way
So you see, I just wanna believe in me
La la la la la la la la

Her identity is mysterious and hidden… only her best friend knows who she really is…

♫      The mirror can lie
doesn’t show you what's inside
and it, it can tell you your full of life

Only her best friend knows why she’s in that place…

♫      It's amazing what you can hide
just by putting on a smile

She’s the kind of girl who you wouldn’t want to fall for…

♫      I'm quickly finding out
I'm not about to break down
Not today
I guess I always knew
That I had all the strength to make it through

Song ends…

She’s Bianca Elisse Co… the NOBODY.

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we've shared

It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothings ever gonna change until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you
The 7 things I hate about you
Oh you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
You're friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and it's silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
When you mean it, I'll believe it
If you text it, I'll delete it
Let's be clear

Oh I'm not coming back
You're taking 7 steps here

The 7 things I hate about you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
You're friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention the 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
When we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hand in mine
When we're intertwined, every thing's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you

I was listening to my LOW-TECH mp4 player [Sorry can't buy an expensive one], then this SONG comes up...

Well, it inspired me to write here in my so called SANCTUARY.

At first when I browsed through it's lyrics I can't help but giggle... It's kinda silly... You can't really  define  what the composer is feeling... it just made me laugh XD [peace].

Aside from that, it's a GREAT song! There I said it...

I like listening to it...

It's so true!

[HAHA]

Well, it just reminds me of friend's love life.

She would always talk trash about her EX then after that, she would tell me all the great things she liked about him!

Well here's to the people who's not sure if they still love their past. Good luck defining what you really feel!

I can help you with that just tell me!

*peAce oUt*

~xELine_meRT~