complicated equals love
Have you ever fell in love, fell through love, fell out of love or just
fell?
Well, I did... at least, half-way...
here's a Bitter fact:
"It is not true that nobody sees you cry in the rain.
It is just that nobody cares because
you choose the rain instead of a shoulder."
true right?? I did once chose to stand under the rain than
cry it all out in the presence of somebody...
I'm a stubborn girl and I have an ego as big as man's.
I have to appear strong and less vulnerable,
but as time passes, i realized it was hard.
[Life is like a rock... it's HARD.]
I had been in my shell for a while now and I hope I could get out of this shell
at most possible way downward,
because when I move upward, I'm sure that
as the opening gets nearer, it would be harder for me
to go out.
I've always wanted the easy way and not the hard way...
Maybe this is my karma...
for not working hard when I should have.
It's raining again and
it's quite cold, colder than the past few days...
it reminded me of the times
that happened a long long time ago...
the bitter past...
the melancholic history...
the life of unending tears...
Loving him
was one thing I was afraid of.
And I was right, it hurts.
But I thank him anyway,
I learned to let go.
He taught me what love really is.
And now I know, it wasn’t him.
but looking at the past,
makes me want to stop time and
try to bring the good times back again...
Life was so simple back then
unlike today,
it's quite complicated...
We don't talk to each other anymore
and we don't even look at each other's faces....
[What would you do if one day,
you wake up and suddenly you realize you fell out of love?
Would you let go and hurt someone?
Or would you stay and hurt yourself?]
I thought it was love
but it wasn't
I was wrong
but why are the memories
still playing inside my head every time
I hear his name...
Is this one way of saying
that I shouldn't have done a mistake
this big?
I let go of him and let him love another person...
Now... I can't understand myself...
If I love him or not...
because it's a mistake to love a person at
a young age...
it never was right...
and the feeling was so wrong...
but still i fell...
knowing...
that no one is there to catch me.
|:...xeZene_reiNe...:|
fell?
Well, I did... at least, half-way...
here's a Bitter fact:
"It is not true that nobody sees you cry in the rain.
It is just that nobody cares because
you choose the rain instead of a shoulder."
true right?? I did once chose to stand under the rain than
cry it all out in the presence of somebody...
I'm a stubborn girl and I have an ego as big as man's.
I have to appear strong and less vulnerable,
but as time passes, i realized it was hard.
[Life is like a rock... it's HARD.]
I had been in my shell for a while now and I hope I could get out of this shell
at most possible way downward,
because when I move upward, I'm sure that
as the opening gets nearer, it would be harder for me
to go out.
I've always wanted the easy way and not the hard way...
Maybe this is my karma...
for not working hard when I should have.
It's raining again and
it's quite cold, colder than the past few days...
it reminded me of the times
that happened a long long time ago...
the bitter past...
the melancholic history...
the life of unending tears...
Loving him
was one thing I was afraid of.
And I was right, it hurts.
But I thank him anyway,
I learned to let go.
He taught me what love really is.
And now I know, it wasn’t him.
but looking at the past,
makes me want to stop time and
try to bring the good times back again...
Life was so simple back then
unlike today,
it's quite complicated...
We don't talk to each other anymore
and we don't even look at each other's faces....
[What would you do if one day,
you wake up and suddenly you realize you fell out of love?
Would you let go and hurt someone?
Or would you stay and hurt yourself?]
I thought it was love
but it wasn't
I was wrong
but why are the memories
still playing inside my head every time
I hear his name...
Is this one way of saying
that I shouldn't have done a mistake
this big?
I let go of him and let him love another person...
Now... I can't understand myself...
If I love him or not...
because it's a mistake to love a person at
a young age...
it never was right...
and the feeling was so wrong...
but still i fell...
knowing...
that no one is there to catch me.
|:...xeZene_reiNe...:|
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